December 2010
6 posts
i want to run. i haven’t been sleeping. nightmares, restlessness, anxiety, fear, and shame swallow me whole. i need strength that is not my own. i cannot do this alone and yet i fear to let my walls down. right now, i stand as a mighty fortress, trembling, terrified, and alone.
i seem to have forgotten how to write. words fail me. instead of finding peace and saving grace within my words, i only hear the sound of you: your voice tearing me down; your breath hovering above me; your promises breaking me apart. i cannot get away from you, and i don’t know how to trust enough to heal from what you did. it amazes me how the promises i made to myself when i was...
I am not mad at you. I have not left you. you are not alone my child. as you lie in bed all day crying because you feel lost and alone, I am there. I am lying next to you, holding you in My arms. I will never let you fall. come to Me. trust, Beloved.
you don’t have to cut away the parts of you that you believe are bad, I want all of you. I want the bruises, the hurts, the abuse,...
“to gasp is to keep the place where voices sound.”
– {bhj}